Tuesday, May 3, 2011
We shouldn't have met..
Hello.. im back.. from century ago..
My blog is really rotten. So i have to start activating again.
Well, at this point in time, i just wanted to express how i really feel about something.
It should be somehow negative, which is why i remember my blog.
I will always remember my blog when im feeling low and when i need 'someone' to talk to.
Basically, there is none i can find to talk about. So here i am, my dear blog. (somehow no one's reading it. Good.)
Okay.. Let's get started. ...........
Well, i should start from what im feeling now. I am really hoping that something might happen.
MIGHT. I know it's harder than anything, but i hope miracles do happen.
And now, i finally understand. Miracles will never happen.
FOR GOD SAKE, the only wish i have for now is an reply back from you. THATS ALL.
Is that too much? Or is it really karma? KARMA? What did i do?
If you are finding me irritating, please do tell me personally and i will never ever do anything foolish. Yet, you let me wait for the entire night and NOW, YOU ARE STILL NOT REPLYING.
Im not complaining about anything. I'm just upset over the attitude you gave me. The same old attitude you gave when i first make my move.
So i shouldnt make my first move right?! HOW FOOLISH!
In that case, we shouldn't have met in the first place. Or i should say, i shouldn't meet you at the FIRST place.
But you know what?! I CAN'T FORGET ABOUT YOU.
Every move that you did was tattoo into my mind. To you, i might be just someone ordinary, but believe what, YOU ARE NOT ORDINARY TO ME. (well, you will never know, bcos you didn't even bother to read my blog. Okay, i think you didn't even know i have a blog!)
But believe those words, it's 100% true!
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, ---
When everyone is saying that you are a ---,
I defended you. GOOD, nothing came back.
But i don't mind. I know you wasn't like what most people think.
And maybe you didn't even know that. (the one on defending.)
So treat it as if i'm doing some volunteer work.
At first, i tot im just thinking too much. I know that you ain't that bad afterall.
You are not that guy who hurts people's heart.
But now.. I think you are just as equally as them. (or isit me thinking too much again? But why ain't you replying? Finding me a nuisance? I AM ACTUALLY. Agree, isn't it?)
Please.. i beg you for once. Tell me the truth! Tell me how much you hate/love me.
Tell me how irritating/loving i am.
Or nevermind.. just throw all those words to me. Eg. I really hate you for stalking me. Give me some space and never appear in front of me!!
It maybe hurtful, but i will accept it bcos those are your true words.
SO I RESPECT IT!
But i need you to tell me in person. I NEED THAT.
So pls don keep quiet. It will make life difficult for both you and me.
I have to give up. I should not continue. I should stop smsing you.
I SHOULD FORGET ABOUT YOU.
But how? Tattoo in my heart and now, im trying to get rid of it?
How painful will it be?! How much suffering will i undergo?
YOU UNDERSTAND ME? Did you? (You didn't!!)
I just wanted my normal life back. I shouldn't have tell my friend that i like you.
And then she will never go and tell you.
Then you won't find me awkward. Then you won't try to avoid me.
Then....then... AHHHHH~~
What should i do? Can anyone help me up?
I really don understand.. What makes me love you so much?You are unlike those previous guys i'm in love with. You are not good looking, abit ---, but i just dono why..
I've fallen for you so much that i can't control myself!! HOW?!
SO NOW.. please tell me the truth. I didn't wanna play guessing games and i sucks at that.
I BEG YOU.. PLEASE REPLY AND TELL ME THE TRUTH.
I'm prepare for whatever is coming!!~~~~ FML.
My blog is really rotten. So i have to start activating again.
Well, at this point in time, i just wanted to express how i really feel about something.
It should be somehow negative, which is why i remember my blog.
I will always remember my blog when im feeling low and when i need 'someone' to talk to.
Basically, there is none i can find to talk about. So here i am, my dear blog. (somehow no one's reading it. Good.)
Okay.. Let's get started. ...........
Well, i should start from what im feeling now. I am really hoping that something might happen.
MIGHT. I know it's harder than anything, but i hope miracles do happen.
And now, i finally understand. Miracles will never happen.
FOR GOD SAKE, the only wish i have for now is an reply back from you. THATS ALL.
Is that too much? Or is it really karma? KARMA? What did i do?
If you are finding me irritating, please do tell me personally and i will never ever do anything foolish. Yet, you let me wait for the entire night and NOW, YOU ARE STILL NOT REPLYING.
Im not complaining about anything. I'm just upset over the attitude you gave me. The same old attitude you gave when i first make my move.
So i shouldnt make my first move right?! HOW FOOLISH!
In that case, we shouldn't have met in the first place. Or i should say, i shouldn't meet you at the FIRST place.
But you know what?! I CAN'T FORGET ABOUT YOU.
Every move that you did was tattoo into my mind. To you, i might be just someone ordinary, but believe what, YOU ARE NOT ORDINARY TO ME. (well, you will never know, bcos you didn't even bother to read my blog. Okay, i think you didn't even know i have a blog!)
But believe those words, it's 100% true!
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, ---
When everyone is saying that you are a ---,
I defended you. GOOD, nothing came back.
But i don't mind. I know you wasn't like what most people think.
And maybe you didn't even know that. (the one on defending.)
So treat it as if i'm doing some volunteer work.
At first, i tot im just thinking too much. I know that you ain't that bad afterall.
You are not that guy who hurts people's heart.
But now.. I think you are just as equally as them. (or isit me thinking too much again? But why ain't you replying? Finding me a nuisance? I AM ACTUALLY. Agree, isn't it?)
Please.. i beg you for once. Tell me the truth! Tell me how much you hate/love me.
Tell me how irritating/loving i am.
Or nevermind.. just throw all those words to me. Eg. I really hate you for stalking me. Give me some space and never appear in front of me!!
It maybe hurtful, but i will accept it bcos those are your true words.
SO I RESPECT IT!
But i need you to tell me in person. I NEED THAT.
So pls don keep quiet. It will make life difficult for both you and me.
I have to give up. I should not continue. I should stop smsing you.
I SHOULD FORGET ABOUT YOU.
But how? Tattoo in my heart and now, im trying to get rid of it?
How painful will it be?! How much suffering will i undergo?
YOU UNDERSTAND ME? Did you? (You didn't!!)
I just wanted my normal life back. I shouldn't have tell my friend that i like you.
And then she will never go and tell you.
Then you won't find me awkward. Then you won't try to avoid me.
Then....then... AHHHHH~~
What should i do? Can anyone help me up?
I really don understand.. What makes me love you so much?You are unlike those previous guys i'm in love with. You are not good looking, abit ---, but i just dono why..
I've fallen for you so much that i can't control myself!! HOW?!
SO NOW.. please tell me the truth. I didn't wanna play guessing games and i sucks at that.
I BEG YOU.. PLEASE REPLY AND TELL ME THE TRUTH.
I'm prepare for whatever is coming!!~~~~ FML.
7:53 AM
